THIS NEW YEAR...

...started off with a series of unfortunate events. A minor accident, financial instablility and loss of valuables (in this case my wallet)...

Immortality

So This is who I am
And this is all I know
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
The spark that makes the power grow.

And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only.

And I must follow on the road that lies ahead.
I won't let my heart control my head.
But you are my only.

We don't say goodbye
We don't say goodbye
And I know what I've got to be.

Immortality.
I make my journey through eternity.
I keep the memory of you and me inside.

Fulfil your destiny.
Is there within a child?
My storm will never end
My fate is on the wind
The king of hearts, The jokers' wild.

But we don't say goodbye.
We don't say goodbye.
I'll make them all remember me.

Cause I have found a dream that must come true.
Every ounce of me must see it through.
But you are my only.

Im sorry I don't have a role for love to play.
Hand over my heart, I'll find my way.
I will make them give to me.

Immortality.
There is a vision and a fire in me.
I'll keep the memory of you and me, inside.

We don't say goodbye.
We don't say goodbye.
With all my love for you
And what else we may do?

We don't say goodbye.

Unappreciated

Sometimes I wonder whats wrong with the way I am, my personal lifestyle or my way with people. At times I feel like im not important or in this case, unappreciated. Only a handful can understand my position. Yes I feel inferior and less popular that some people who seems to have it all. Yet with what I have, its as if im becoming invisible. Is it just me? what have I done? why must there be humiliation just to get noticed?

A time to...

HEAL. Fear. HATE. LOVE. EnVy. CHeeR. CrY. LaUgH. Run. wait. Ponder.


wanna add to dat list?

Why?

Why Am I the victim? if not always?

Why Am I the laughing stock?

Why Am I being 'singled' out?

Why must I go through this again?

Why do I have intentional thoughts?

Why do I feel hurt at jokes towards me?

Of friends and Colleagues

You hate em' but you can't live w/o em. In every way they are in a part of your lives. In this case, mine. Through the years of socializing and meeting people, have somewhat evolved into this bond which I find it hard to separate myself from. Time and again they come and they go. And some of them left with an imprint of themselves upon me, a reminder not to forget them as time passes by, knowing that in time it will fade away.

Among these people, there are those "special" few where you see them as they are, value them for their existence, knowing that if you lose them, finding another will be near-impossible. As for me I've grown attached to them even to the extent of emotional attachment. For these lot, they're becoming part of my personal family. And I'll never abandon or sever ties with them.

Zero-Niner

In a blink of an eye, 2008 was over. Another year, with another god-knows-what will come by.

I pray that it'll all turn out better for everyone.