I'm still...

Reeling over from the aftermath. Am still in pain from the emotional scars. It just wont seem to heal itself. Have come to the point where I have to be fragile to practically everything. Really can't help it. Am afraid of repeating the same mistakes. Unforeseen mistakes.

Patching up..

Am shattered once again... now in recovery process... dunno how long this goes...

I.HATE.MYSELF.

I.HATE.IT.I.HATE.IT.

REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.HATE.MYSELF.

AM BLAMING MYSELF FOR CAUSING TOO MUCH DAMAGE WITHOUT REALIZING

I.REALLY.HATE.MYSELF.